He calls me "maneater."
I study a crack in the wall until it blinks.
He wants me to be sorry for not loving him.
And I want to be sorry for not loving him
because good people
are supposed to love other good people
are supposed to love other good people
and he is a good
and this is the only way to prove my own goodness
even if loving him just means unpacking all my suitcases
and making my eyes look like I'm listening.
But I've spent months
tamping down the sky trapped inside my body.
Months sitting with my hands in my lap
And for that I say
I cannot allow myself to believe
that love is nothing but a reward for good behavior.
For that I say,
I don't want to eat you, little boy.
You are not my brand of firewood.
~Safia Elhillo~
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